off my chest. rambling again.

in all of about 15 minutes my soul was shattered.
you're the one person I wished I could be near.
i'm not afraid to die, i'm just not ready yet.
you were there the first time I felt this alone.
it was the only other time I've felt this broken.
you were there, now you're not.

there's only one thing I wished I never done.
listen to someone other than you.
it was our friendship, not theirs.
i'm just a fuck up baby.
i'll live.

i hope you never read this, it's depressing enough.
you'd know everything I've written the past few months was about you.
"I adore you. I need you. I want you. I miss you. I love you."
ha i miss those jokes because you never got them.

i was always afraid to act like me.
i was always afraid too.
i am alot different now, i am not afraid.
i am alot different now.


jobs.
cars.
dogs.
college.
and a stuffed hippo noone wants.